#flowtherapy EP Vol. 1

by Devin James

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1.	World War Me 01:46	lyrics	buy track
There's a battle waging Bombs-blowing Trenches dug Firing guns All while not-knowing This is going on. My insides are like Normandy beach I'm looking at me storming the beach While I'm breaking down Mourning deceased Versions of me that are dying By my own hand... I'm trying to radio for help But the phone's dead Looking at myself I'm like, whoah man I've been the reason That I've lived in a cold trench, This whole time? Why would I do that to myself? Why would I wage a war To prove to myself That I'm not worth What people credit me for? I see a scene of me happy That I keep editing more And, on the horizon Looms a self leveling storm Air strikes and mortars A literal wall that explodes Internally, I battle a barrage of insults Externally, I'm looking like I'm there but I'm not Because the struggle within Has dissolved my emotions Even if I win the battle I've lost the war... Because it's a war with myself So, really what's it all for?
2.	The Locks 02:55	lyrics	buy track
Every excuse is a lock Put on your mental front door... At first, it starts with a few. What started as one Then became two. What grew to three Became four, five and six. Soon you end up with 20 But, not enough picks. See, The Locks became layered Infused in their function To where, now your excuses are Confused at this juncture There's so many levels Unlock one, to lock another You just want to try something new Maybe see a new color But there's so many locks There's locks inside locks There's keys in deposit boxes Lost in my thoughts Now I can't remember why I made up that lie That I can't just be free And give whatever a try... I've now locked myself in I put up my walls My thoughts are so boxed They've now become small I've lost the big picture My walls have closed-in Opportunities knock But I can't get the door open... I try to unlock 'em But there's too many of 'em I'm feeling held hostage And in circles I'm runnin' I'm going stir crazy I gotta get out The walls that I put up Have got to come down! Man, I'm backed in a corner There's nowhere to go I just wanna be free And not be so alone This place has no comfort It's holding me back The halls are so long, So hollow and black The excuses I made When the odds were all stacked Are now stacked up against me... So, I close my eyes and I say, "I wish... "I wish... "I wish all these walls would fall flat..." And so I open my eyes And to my surprise My walls have come down I can look at the sky! I can see the horizon A world that's so vast Man, I thought I was broken But I broke from my cast No more holding back, No more excuses I now choose to no longer Live in seclusion My walls have come down It's just me on this rock Now when opportunities come They don't even have to knock.
3.	Frequency Filters 02:49	lyrics	buy track
The signal I got Was flat... No adjustments made Or any of that. I had the freedom to take the signal And do with it what I wanted. I could make it sound amazing like a choir Or something that's...hard to stomach. For example... Let's say, someone lays into you And gives you a mouthful, It's terrible sounding The dissonance is palpable. But, I can add a filter And morph how it sounds, I can take that right side up garble And turn it upside-down. I can make it sound sweeter Than they meant it to be Then, I can give it back to them Through the filter of sympathy, and... Empathy. What they unknowingly did Was let you in on a clue. That what's been wrong with them Was taken out on you. See... If all they hear is noise They have a biased...frequency scanner But if I bump the highs and the mids On a piece of their banter, And if I notch out the garbage N' take out the bass Then their vocals find a place In my positive mind state. And what I interpret, I send back to them They can now hear air in the frequency That they didn't intend. They can tune into something, That isn't just static. Now, the sweep of their problems -- Is not problematic. And if they pick up my signal Just for a second, They might take a minute To learn a new lesson... And that is... If I tune out the noise In that woe is me talk I can still mix your message, To hit my sweet spot.
4.	The Case 03:36	lyrics	buy track
The Case Has me going to a place That's uncomfortable Because before, When there were leads to chase... I'd just run from em. But now it's staring me in the face And my excuse has been That I haven't been confident Enough, To handle what's behind That door that might punish me Beat me up and pummel me Treat me like The Punisher Eat me up Chew me up and spit me out, To tell the truth... But, the truth... When I add it all up The sum of truth, Hits me with a sobering A sobering doce Like, a hundred proof... But this is where my destiny lies I gotta run into That place That I've been afraid to investigate For a month or two Even though I knew It would solve the case See, I hesitated Because I knew That this is where everything would funnel to And as long as I've held it together I also jnew, This is where I probably would come unglued. But, this is where it bubbles up This where it bottle necks I either go in there With my novice neck Stuck out Exposed and vulnerable Ready for what's comin' next... Or I watch this case go cold And sign my autograph Signing off on all the crap That everybody talked with respects To the fact that this case Was just supposed to end up in a box like an artifact... They said it was done They said I...was done But I am not done I will not run Away... If I have to I will run Right into the barrel of a shotgun. But man, I am scared to death Of what comes next I am scared to death Of putting myself out there... I am terrified That from these lips All the plans to solve the case That I had talked up Have been the same lips That I never pulled the trigger on And shot from.
5.	Roboticism 02:55	lyrics	buy track
I am human. I am not a robot. I am not AI. Where people are going out I'm staying-in Where my face is in focus mode They display-a-grin Long lists, check marks Wishing I could trade-'em-in For dinner and a movie, man But I guess that this... Is just the way-it-is. It's isolating Being the efficient one Afraid to delve into emotions For fear I wouldn't get-it-done But, I wake up feeling that hurt for home However, home Is something I just don't for certain...know. I keep wondering If on the search-for-home That the show is over Lights out Curtains-closed. How do I make home where the heart is? Where the heart is Satiated Not like a bone when I'm starvin'... I'm tired of looking Tired of finding I just want my purpose To come and find-me. I'm tired of being afraid I'm tired of rules I'm tired of thinking I need to be fixed But I can't find the tools Tired of looking at my inner workings Like they need to be re-wired And re-wired again All this re-wiring is making Me-tired... I'm tired I'm tired of thinking that it's always me All the time And that all those guns pointed at me In this World World Me They just need to cease-fire. I'm tired of this programming Tired of falling-in-line I want to be falling in love Like RIGHT NOW... No stalling-this-time. Tired of order, tired of the details Tired of in-person being replaced By e-mails I'm Tired of messages, tired of digital I think here and now it's pivotal To say something more Than just subliminal... And that is... I am human. I am not a robot. I am not AI. I'm tired of following the path Going only in a straight line See, I want to veer off of it And at the same time Jump, man Just JUMP! Were you about to say that? Great minds... Think-alike You know what I want most? All I want is a human... State of mind.